This story is not a story but a real thing which a person
is experiencing in his/her life. so my story begins from here... i was
16 years old where i was hoping for a good and prosperous life. i want
to become a doctor but belonging to a middle class family it is very
difficult to acquire that dream. the thinking behind this ambition was
that to be doctor i can help those people who need me and who will
belive on me that i can cure them with full devotion. i want to be a
gynoecologist because to be a gynoecologist is to be the one who sees
the face of a child before her mother, by the god's grace. when i passed
my 10th class with 80% i was very happy. at that time my parents were
very happy too. the happiness in their eyes was to get heaven with open
eyes. when i came to 11th class i was very excited to have a new
subject. actually, truely i did not really know that in 11th science
there would be each of the subjects in science. it was very difficult to
study by our selves, because teachers were not available for us.
because of this every child with money went to get that tuition of
40,000 to 50,000. what can i do? at the time i was totally unable. what
should i do? i was confused. i passed 11th class with 66.2%. i feel very
bad but still i don't lose my dream. at that time i fill myself. ik now
that god will surely help me. but without having the basic knowledge
how can i have the 12th class with 90% and above? still i used to study
at late nights and have 60.3%. when i was given the medical entrance i
secured 204 and being obc i wanted 320 marks. i had prepared for medical
in 3 days, just after my 12th examination. ha! an amazing fact was that
i was not with any book of entrance prepration. i feel so sad, not
because of losing my dream but having sadness in the eyes of parents. my
parents are god, my whole world, and my ambition for me. but later i
qualified many exams, but u will laugh when u hear the real story behind
this loss. in my relative there is someone who forced me not to fill
the form because, being my first time, i did not know how to fill the
form, how to post and other things. when i went to fill the form he
insulted me. my mother was at that position. i feel very bad, very shy. i
took my mother from that place and went to my home. whenever i asked
him why he is doing so he used to say, "if u will study a lot, i can
bring a husband for u?" nowadays there is someone still who is thinking
of the man. prosperity, everything was destroyed. i was beginning to go
in depression for 2 months. lastly, i was not with any college. i used
to stay in the house. whenever my society's girls used to have their
college bag, they laugh with their friends by seeing this. i feel so sad
and cying a lot. i went to my room. i got tranfered to mumbai. i heard
that mumbai provided platform to all people. and i hope mumbai will help
me....... please tell me.... can i have my dream again or
not?..........
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